Friday, February 18...

all the boys
voices cracking
oh the moaning 1/2 tones
come summertime
we're all the same age here
all the tension and the terror
thin limbed gorgeous green eyes smiling
and i'm going straight to hell
all the possibility and promise just
weighs on me so heavily
and i try but i'm not convincing
your lips they pout and twist
and i die trying just to keep myself from kissing you
you take in everything with a certainty i envy
its somehow all i need just kepp me guessing please
darling all of these awkward jumpstart stalling conversations
mean much more to me than anything
so it comes down
to me and you and
whether we're supposed to or not we still will
we're so much better off than them
all the possibility
and promise just weighs on me so heavily
and i try but i'm not convincing
your lips they pout and twist and
i die trying just to keep myself from kissing you
you take in everything with
a certainty i envy
its somehow all i need
just keep me guessing please
a look a laugh a smile a second
passes by and i regret it
words just aren't right
sometimes i just can't explain
all the ways you devastate me
always on my mind
and i try but i'm not convincing
your lips they pout and twist and
i die trying just to keep myself from kissing you
you take in everything with
a certainty i envy
its somehow all i need
just keep me guessing please

the tension and the terror- straylight run
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Wednesday, February 2...

1) Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought:
1. a snickers and m&ms
2. ticket to RRHS talent show
3. snowball tickets
4. extra snowball t-shirt

2) Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink :
1. water
2. juice
3. orange pop sometimes
4. milk rarely

3) Last Time You Cried? last night before i fell asleep

4) What's In Your CD Player? the format

5) What's Under Your Bed? crap... i should probably throw that stuff away

6) What Time Did You Wake Up Today? around 11.30.. i love not going to school

7) Current Hair? brownish.. light brown i guess

8) Current Clothes? jeans, brown shirt, green jacket

9) Current Desktop Picture? some guy fishing... don't ask

10) Current Worry? college and not having 3 years of a foreign language

11) Current Hate? my face

12) Favorite Places To Be? my room, outside walking around town when its warm, in the car with friends

13) Least Favorite Place? RRHS talent show sitting by myself....

14) If You Could Play An Instrument? bass... haha

15) Favorite Color(s)? green grey pink (not gonna lie) black white

16) How Tall Are You?5'1''

17) Favorite _expression? uhh dunno

18) One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To: miss gatchell

19) Favorite Day(s)? summer days... saturdays...

20) Where Would You Like To Go? atlanta, new orleans, st louis, north carolina (anywhere), or course ireland, switzerland, etc

21) Where do you want to live when you get married? a warm place

22) Favorite food? lemon chiffon ice cream-- amazing

23) Color of most clothes you own: black, blue (jeans), white, red

24) Number of pillows you sleep with? two unless you count big stuffed animals that are sometimes used as pillows... then its four or five

25) What do you wear when you go to sleep: sweatpants and a sweatshirt lately

26) What were you doing at 12AM last night: online, looking up colleges i think

27) How old will you be in 10 yrs: 27

28) What do you think you'll be doing in 10 years: possibly working in NYC, possibly not. i dunno

29) Do you have braces? i did till 5th grade

30) Are you paranoid? yeah, i have to admit it

31) Do you burn or tan? neither. i just don't darken in any way

32) What is the brand of your wallet? no idea

33) First piercing/tattoo? ears... no tattoo yet..

34) First enemy? this girl in kindergarten... she wouldn't let me hang out with tessa lynch... hahahhaha

35) Last person you yelled at? i think my mom :-/

36) Last crush? hmmmmmm

37) Last thing you ate? chinese food (general tso's chicken) and ice cream (lemon chiffon- sooo good)

38) The last time you had sex it was...? absolutely amazing. err... thats right, i'm a virgin.

posted by Shaa |

Friday, January 14...

Jesse McCartney- Beautiful Soul

i don't want another pretty face
i don't want just anyone to hold
i don't want my love to go to waste
i want you and your beautiful soul
you're the one i wanna chase
you're the one i wanna hold
i won't let another minute go to waste
i want you and your beautiful soul

i know that you are something special
to you i'd always be faithful
i want to be what you always needed
then i hope you'll see the heart in me

i don't want anohter pretty face
i don't want just anyone to hold
i don't want my love to go to waste
i want you and your beautiful soul
you're the one i wanna chase
you're the one i wanna hold
i won't let another minute go to waste
i want you and your beautiful soul

your beautiful soul, yeah
you might need time to think it over
but i'm just fine moving forward
i'll ease your mind
if you give me the chance
i will never make you cry
comeon lets try

i don't want another pretty face
i don't want just anyone to hold
i don't want my love to go to waste
i want you and your beautiful soul
you're the one i wanna chase
you're the one i wanna hold
i won't let another minute go to waste
i want you and your beautiful soul

am i crazy for wanting you
baby do you think you could want me too
i don't wanna waste your time
do you see things the way i do
i just wanna know if you feel it too
there is nothing left to hide

i don't want another pretty face
i don't want just anyone to hold
i don't want my love to go to waste
i want you and your beautiful soul
you're the one i wanna chase
you're the one i wanna hold
i won't let another minute go to waste
i want you and your beautiful soul
your beautiful soul, yeah

i love you josh
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Friday, January 7...

i saw this on Sarah's myspace and HAD to show it to everyone... haha everything except the first one is true.

31 Things Guys Should Know About Girls

Written by a guy. After years of experience.

1. Whatever you do, don't just show up at their house...they run around in their underwear just like we do. (stopping by unexpectedly is very sweet; don't listen to this one)

2. Don't cheat on them. It may seem foolproof, but girls tell each other everything about everything. Trust me, they WILL find out and you will be mud.

3. Beware of every single male relatives and all guy friends. Any of them would kick your butt at the drop of a hat, and a lot of them wouldn't even wait for the damn hat.

4. Never miss an opportunity to tell them they're beautiful.

5. Don't refuse to kiss in front of your friends. If they laugh at you, it's because they're jealous.

6. If they slap you hard, you deserved it.

7. Don't be afraid to touch them if you want to. If they're going out with you in the first place, it's because they like being in your arms.

8. If you don't sleep with them, do not tell your friends that you did.

--8.5. If you DO sleep with them, don't tell your friends that you did.

9. You can be dirty minded in private, really...most of them are not offended by it...

10. Not all of them eat like birds, a lot of them can eat like whales.

11. Most of them don't mind paying half of everything, but they do discuss these things with their friends. Realize that if you make your girlfriend pay half all the time, everyone will know about it and your friends will know you're a pussy.

--11.5. Do you honestly need all your money that much? Be a man, pay all the time!

12. Every girl should eventually get three things from her boyfriend- a stuffed animal, one of his sweatshirts, and a really pretty ring. Even if it's not a serious relationship.

13. Make sure she gets home safely as often as you can. If you're dropping her off, walk her to the door. If you aren't dropping her off, call to be sure she's home safely.

14. If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to kick the crap out of him.

15. If you're talking to a female friend of yours, pull your girlfriend closer.

16. Never, ever slap her, even if it's just in a joking way. Even if she swats you first, and says, "Oh, you're so dumb" or something, never make any gestures back.

17. Go to a chick flick once in a while. She doesn't care whether you enjoy it or not, it just matters that you went.

18. You're dead meat if you can't get along with their pets, parents and best friends. Be prince charming to their friends, Mr. Polite to their parents, and make sure to be nice to their animals.

19. Don't flirt with their moms or friends...that's just freaky.

20. Don't be freaked out by PMS. It's not gross, and it really does make them feel like crap, so be understanding.

21. If you don't like the way they drive, you do it.

22. If you're officially dating, and you're introducing her to your friends, you'd better damn well introduce her as your girlfriend.

23. Don't stress where you go for every date. They really only want to be with you.

24. If they complain that something hurts, rub it for them without being asked.

25. Girls are fragile. Even if you're play fighting/wrestling, be very gentle.

26. Memorize their birthdays. You forget her birthday and you're basically screwed for life.

27. Don't marinade the cologne.

28. Don't give her something stupid for her birthday or Christmas or Valentine's day. It doesn't have to be expensive, but it has to be meaningful. Jewelry is always nice.

29. If you think the relationship isn't going to last, don't wait to find out. It will only hurt you more if you draw it out.

30. After you've been dating for a while, realize that they really have started to trust you. When you have a girlfriend who truly trusts you, you have a lot more responsibility, privilege and control than you would think. Be careful with it, most guys would kill for that kind of power, and it can be lost in a nanosecond.

31.Don't ever do anything wrong (well not anything). girls remember things for life and anything you did wrong will be used against you in the future.

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time for a long boring quiz...

(1) Your gender: female
(2) Straight/gay/bi?: Straight
(3) Single?: nope
(4) Want to be?: nope!
(5) Your birth day: nov 22 1987
(6) Age you act: well someone made a bet one time that i was 23 hahahaha... but i hope i act 17.
(7) Age you wish you were: 5 haha
(8) Your height: 5'2? yeah aka short
(9) The color of your eyes: blue
(10) Happy with it?: yeah
(11) The color of your hair: dark blonde/light brown
(12) Happy with it?: not really. i wish it was darker
(13) Left/right/ambidextrous?: righty
(14) Your living arrangement?: mom, stepdad, step brother, half brother, bird!
((I don’t know where numbers 15-26 are. haha))
(27) Your family: mom-ann dad-frank stepbro-frank halfbro-nick bird-lucky
(29) What's your job: hostess at winking lizard- come visit
(30) Piercings?: ears
(31) Tattoos?: none yet (graduation present from my dad! i hope)
(32) Obsessions?: hmm rent
(35) Do you speak another language?: i tried spanish but it didn't work
(36) Have a favorite quote?: sing like you think no one's listening (currently my favorite)
(37) Do you have a webpage?: this and a myspace.com

DEEP THOUGHTS about life and you in it
(38) Do you live in the moment?: i like to think so, but i do worry a lot about the future n stuff
(39) Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: yes. except one that i can think of right now.
(40) Do you have any secrets?: mmm i used to but i told one person everything haha
(41) Do you hate yourself?: well i don't like myself that much, but its not hate.
(42) Do you like your handwriting?: omg no haha
(43) Do you have any bad habits?: crack my knuckles, pick at my nails, pick nail polish off (when i have it on, aka not often)
(44) What is the compliment you get most from people?: well the comment i get the most is "you're so SKINNY!" but i dunno if i'd call that a compliment. i guess its better than "you're huge!"
(45) If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: this movie sucks hahahaha no jk i dunno.
(46) What's your biggest fear?: people lying to me when i trust them
(47) Can you sing: i like to
(48) Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: yes i pretend to be girl that has a 30 year old bf cuz she's SO COOL haha soph you know what i'm talking about..
(49) Are you a loner?: totally
(51) If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: probably not haha
(52) Are you a daredevil?: i wish, but no.
(53) Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: i hate my face
(54) Are you passive or aggressive?: passive/assertive
(55) Have you got a ?: hmmm i wish i knew what this originally said
(56) What is your greatest strength and weakness? strength- ym tpying abiltiy. weakness-LEMON CHIFFON ICE CREAM hahaha
(57) If you could change one thing about yourself?: allergies; sickness in general
(58) There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose?: creativity probably. i already have love and beauty. except not beauty. haha.
(59) How do you vent?: listen to mad/sad music, knit, talk to jaimie and/or josh, write in my private blog, clean, do my hair/makeup. i dont know how that last one helps, but it really does.
(60) Do you think you are emotionally strong?: i'd say no. i cry all the time. but i guess thats not weakness really, just letting it out. i dunno.
(61) Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: yeah.. i'm sorry josh hagan...
(62) Do you think life has been good so far?: yes
(63) What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: not everyone is trustworthy but not everyone isn't either. it seems obvious, but really.
(64) What do you like the most about your body?: i like my body minus my head and feet and hands.
(65) And least?: head/face, feet, and hands.
(66) Do you think you are good looking?: no
(67) Are you confident?: no haha
(68) What character you're most like?: no clue. someone tell me
(69) Do people know how you feel?: yes. most of the time
(70) Are you perceived wrongly?: sometimes yes

DO YOU...
(71) Smoke?: no
(72) Do drugs?: no
(73) Read the newspaper?: the arts and life and headlines on front page
(74) Pray?: not really
(75) Go to church? every sunday
(76) Talk to strangers who IM you?: strangers don't IM me
(77) Sleep with stuffed animals?: yes :)
(78) Take walks in the rain?: if its a warm rain, yea
(79) Talk to people even though you hate them?: i'll talk to people i don't like in a group, but i don't really hate anyone.
(80) Drive?: no!
(81) Like to drive fast?: ummm maybe when i drive

HAVE YOU EVER...
(82) Liked your voice?: yes
(83) Hurt yourself?: no
(84) Been out of the country?: no
(85) Eaten something that made other people sick?: no
(86) Burped?: yess
(87) Been unfaithful?: no
(88) Been in love?: yes
(89) Done drugs?: no
(90) Gone skinny dipping?: no i reallllly want to tho!
(92) Had a surgery?: yeah but its lame haha
(93) Ran away from home?: nope
(94) Played strip poker: no
(95) Gotten beaten up?: no
(97) Been picked on?: yeah
(98) Been on stage?: yes :)
(99) Been so drunk that you know you're supposed to go out on a date with someone, but you can't remember with who or when and that you faint when you look at yourself in the mirror in the morning, not to mention your breath?: no
(100) Slept outdoors?: yes
(101) Thought about suicide?: yes
(102) Pulled an all-nighter?: kinda. i was on the phone till 8 AM w/ josh one time and i stayed up till 630 at a sleepover with jaimie
(103) If yes, what is your record?: above
(105) Talked on the phone all night?: mhmm
(106) Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: yes
(107) Slept all day?: not alll day but a lot of it
(108) Killed someone?: no!
(109) Made out with a stranger?: no
(110) Had sex with a stranger?: no
(111) Thought you're going crazy?: hahaha yes omg
(112) Kissed the same sex?: on the cheek yea
(113) Done anything sexual with the same sex?: no.
(114) Been betrayed?: yeah
(115) Had a dream that came true?: i don't think so, but i don't remember my dreams. maybe that's deja vu or something
(116) Broken the law?: jaywalking? hahaha jk
(117) Met a famous person?: yes
(118) Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: ants and stuff
(146) Stolen anything?: i don't think so... other than a little piece of candy at a grocery store.
(147) Been on radio/TV.?: yes
(148) Been in a mosh-pit?: on the outskirts (APC!)
(149) Had a nervous breakdown?: nah
(150) Considered religious vocation?: hahaahaha noooo
(151) Been criticized about your sexual performance?: yes haha
(152) Bungee jumped?: no.. too bad i didnt know what that was till this year. i'm such a loser.
(153) Had a dream that kept coming back?: no

CLOTHES and other fashion
(154) Shoe brand?: sketchers, nb
(155) Brand of clothing?: volcom, ae, GAP
(156) Cologne/perfume?: sweet pea, simply white
(157) What are you normally wearing to school/work?: the uniform
(159) Wear hats?: yes
(161) Wear make-up?: when i feel like it. like today
(162) Favorite place to shop?: pacific sun, gap, AE, marshalls, thrifting
(163) Favorite article of clothing?: my expensive jeans, any volcom shirt, sweatpants.. haha
(164) Are you trendy?: i like to think so, but i'm not really.
(165) Would you rather wear a uniform to school?: i like it

BELIEFS
(166) Believe in life on other planets?: maybe like bacteria or something
(167) Miracles? yeahhhh
(168) Astrology?: not really but its fun to think about
(169) Magic?: noo
(170) God?: no
(171) Satan?: no
(172) Santa?: yes.
(173) Ghosts?: NO!!!! but ghost stories reallllly freak me out!
(174) Luck?: yes
(175) Love at first sight?: nope
(176) Yin and Yang?: yes, absolutely
(177) Witches?: as in wicca, yes.
(178) Easter bunny?: mhmmm
(179) Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: yes
(180) Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow?: umm no
(181) Do you wish on stars?: yes, everytime i think about it

LOVE, and all that
(182) Did you get frightened or uncomfortable seeing that as a section title?: no
(183) Do you remember your first love?: yes
(184) Still love him/her?: yes :)
(185) Do you consider love a mistake?: absolutely not. if it was a mistake you may never have loved that person.
(186) What do you find romantic?: flowers, stuffed animals, the cliche stuff..
(187) Turn-on?: hair, eyes, arms
(188) Turn-off?: too much confidence
(189) Do you base your judgment on looks alone: no
(200) If someone you had no interest in dating expressed interest in dating you, how would you feel?: guilty, even tho i shouldn't.
(201) Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going "blind"?: i def wanna know someone
(202) Have you ever wished it was more "socially acceptable" for a girl to ask a guy out?: it is accepted, but i would rather be asked out than ask a guy out
(203) Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractive?: yes
(204) Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: well i hope so
(206) What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: nothing...
(207) What's the last present someone gave you?: a scarf! sophie made it; it was her first one :)
(208) Are you in love?: yes
(209) Do you consider your significant other hot?: yes haha
(210) What would you do if you were walking down the street and saw some hot guy/girl standing on the sidewalk?: keep walking...?

WHO WAS THE LAST PERSON...
(211) That haunted you?: hm?
(212) You wanted to kill?: uhh B______ M_______
(213) That you laughed at?: mr janson (i'm in his class rt now)
(214) That laughed at you?: probably soph haha
(215) That turned you on?: josh...
(216) You went shopping with?: jaimie?
(217) That broke your heart?: nick
(218) To disappoint you?: mr janson
(219) To ask you out?: josh
(220) To make you cry?: it wasnt a person, it was something that was happening
(221) To brighten up your day?: josh hagan- he has a gf and that made me super happy
(222) That you thought about?: josh h cuz i just wrote about him?
(223) You saw a movie with?: i don't even remember
(224) You talked to on the phone?: josh
(225) You talked to through IM?: josh n laura
(226) You saw?: janson...
(227) You lost?: hmmm
(229) You thought was completely insane?: bernadette
(230) You wanted to be?: nobody
(231) You told off?: i don't tell people off. except in my head.
(232) You trusted?: like past tense? like i don't trust anymore? probably nick.
(233) You turned down?: that hasn't happened any time recently

WHEN WAS THE LAST TIME YOU
(234) Smiled?: today
(235) Laughed?: today
(236) Cried?: last night when i thought i had appendicitis and no one cared haha.. i still might but i have no idea
(237) Bought something?: candy, a little bit ago.
(238) Danced?: i pretended to today hahahhahaha
(239) Were sarcastic?: its so often i don't think about it
(240) hugged someone?: last night, my mommy
(241) Talked to an ex?: last night i talked to josh h, but he's such a friend its hard to think of him as an ex
(242) Watched your fave movie?: uhh i don't think i have one..
(243) Had a nightmare?: i'm not sure that i've ever had one.
(245) Talked on the phone?: last night
(246) Listened to the radio?: couple days ago
(247) Watched TV?: last night? maybe?
(248) Went out?: on a date? or out of the house? cuz i'm out of the house rt now, but it doesn't count cuz i'm at school...
(249) Helped someone?: today
(250) Were mean?: yesterday.. haha
(251) Sang?: today
(252) Saw a movie in a theater?: don't remember
(253) Said "I love you"?: last night to my mommy
(254) Missed someone?: rt now
(255) Fought with a family member?: i don't remember
(256) Fought with a friend?: don't remember
(257) Had a serious conversation?: today
(258) Got drunk?: -


ok so if you didn't read that, fill it out. because as you're filling it out, you will read it. hehe
posted by Shaa |

Monday, January 3...

mmmm lemon chiffon mmmmm

sing like you think no one's listening
--straylight run

posted by Shaa |

Thursday, December 16...

Sun and Moon -- Miss Saigon
[KIM]You are sunlight and I moon
Joined by the gods of fortune
Midnight and high noon
Sharing the sky
We have been blessed, you and I

[CHRIS]You are here like a mystery
I'm from a world that's so different
From all that you are
How in the light of one night
Did we come so far?

[KIM]Outside day starts to dawn

[CHRIS]Your moon still floats on high

[KIM]The birds awake

[CHRIS]The stars shine too

[KIM]My hands still shake

[CHRIS]I reach for you

[BOTH]And we meet in the sky!

[KIM]You are sunlight and I moon
Joined here
Bright'ning the sky
With the flame Of love

[BOTH]Made of
Sunlight
Moonlight

posted by Shaa |

Wednesday, December 15...

i'm on myspace.com now, so i may or may not put anything else in here. not sure. but thought i'd let y'all know.

posted by Shaa |

Sunday, December 12...

maybe i could've used Kairos. maybe i wouldn't feel so useless.

posted by Shaa |

Tuesday, November 30...

i feel like shit.

don't get sick.
don't get lazy.
don't get caught up in a romance story.

posted by Shaa |

Sunday, November 28...

i typed up this whole long paragraph about stuff thats on my mind, but instead of posting, it got deleted. i am wayy too lazy to type it all up again. just thought everyone should know that. now i'm gonna go do my notecards... *insert witty ending here*

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